I would like to be more proactive, especially in my interpersonal relationships.
The few people in my life find me stable and supportive but they always tell me that I leave them feeling like I don’t need them as much as they do me. Primarily because I rarely initiate contact. I don’t like that. I don’t like that I make the people I love doubt the depth of my love. Additionally it just never strikes me to make follow up calls to someone who has been ill or recently bereaved. I never remember birthdays and other special days. I will put my life on hold and be there for you in a crisis… but then I cannot wish a crisis upon people just so that they realize that I care.
This is something that I really need to fix about myself… and yet, I find myself unable to change.
Written in response to Fandango’s Provocative Question #129: What is the one thing you would like to change about yourself and why?